last week some are living for nothing but deadlines, with my deadbeat sky but this town doesn’t look the same tonight. these dreams started singing to me out of nowhere, and in all my life i don’t know that i ever felt so alive, alive.

here we are now with the falling sky and the rain, we’re awakening.  here we are now with the desparate youth in pain, we’re awakiening, maybe it’s called ambition, but you’re been talking in your sleep, about a dream, we’re awakening.

i wanna wake up kicking and screaming, i wanna know that my heart’s still beating, it’s beating, i’m bleeding.  i wanna wake up kicking and screaming, i wanna live like i know what i’m leaving, i wanna know that my heart’s still beating, it’s beating, it’s beating, it’s beating, i’m bleeding.

awakening, switchfoot

2012 . . . I want to own you.  I want 2012 to be full of awakening, and continuing to move forward, push beyond, be alive.

I want to spend this year being full of “good things”, to quote Jay, one of my profs last term.  It’s written on my whiteboard in huge letters right now, and I plan to surround it with smaller words of other good things throughout the year.  Stepping back and seeing what is good.  It’s a simple, short and sweet motivation with a big message.

So what does this mean for the year?  Focus on the good things, the good choices.  It means not ignoring the good things that seem small and just seeing them as good things.  It means setting short term goals that lead to long term goals.  It means moving forward and sharing this passion and perspective with others.

It means working harder at accomplishing what I’ve set out to accomplish.

Small things

• Focus on the good things.
• Complete the onehundredpushups program and not derail. Yes, I am doing girly push-ups. It is better than no push-ups.  If all goes well, this will be completed by the end of January.
• Stop making Saturday and Sunday the exception: 
  • the weekend is not an excuse to only brush my teeth once a day instead of twice
  • it is not an excuse to forgo a workout or two
  • and it is not a cop out for eating all kinds of random food.
• Become more reliable at hitting up the cardio workouts 45 minutes/day, 5 days/week.
• Read over the day’s notes when I get home from school and make study notes as the term goes on, because it will make finals suck less.

Bigger things

• Health advocacy: do new things, reach beyond what I’ve already been doing in some way.  [Maybe that’s doing more races sporting the Team Asthma gear, maybe that’s trying to see if volunteering at asthma camp will work this year, maybe that’s giving my time and my own body for research if I’m eligible.  It could be a lot of things, or all of these things].
• Actually walk a half marathon.  I’ve been saying I’m going to do one for about two years, so let’s make 2012 the year pending all goes as planned.
• Work with others to help them realize their own potential, be a part of that ripple effect.
• Figure out where I’m at with God.
• Make another attempt at the 365 project.
• Hesitate less, do more.

I fully expect to not accomplish all of these, and if I don’t, they’ll transfer into 2013.  If I do, then I’ll be golden.

I am awake. 2012 . . . let’s go.